曾经读过余华的小说《活着》.那故事并不长,讲述了一个地主少爷曾经堕落,曾经坎坷,曾经曲折,亦曾经醒悟的一生.余华用这样一个故事向世人描绘了一幅鲜活的活着的画面,用真实且不加任何修饰的一切阐述了”活着”的意义.

他告诉我们,生活是现实的生活,现实也是生活中的现实..生活中充斥着丑陋和阴暗,但也拥有着美好的瞬间.生活它千滋百味,又有谁能够品得详尽..也许其中苦涩,也许只有临终之前的人们才能够说得清楚.

人们都说,人长大了,烦恼也就多了..

这就是活着..其实究其原因也很简单,长大了,生活便不再像孩子时代那么单纯,成人的生活中更多的是与这个世风日下的社会打交道,更多的是与一些低俗的人打交道,这样一来,自然觉得累,觉得烦…在恶俗中追求高尚,在沉沦中挣扎重生,也许这才是”活着”的真正味道..

今年我才二十岁,正是肆无忌惮闯荡的年龄,但很遗憾,我深深的感觉到也许我没有我想象中应有得那番激情..取而代之的是更多的顾虑与冷静..有人说这就是世故,也许吧,从某个层面上讲确实是这样.

上大学后,听得最多的一句话就是:”现在我们过的是猪的生活…”;前些日子和一个国外上大学的朋友打电话,他说:”他觉得他过的是狗的日子…”.听起来很好笑,似乎上大学的同学们对自己的生活都不是很满意,至少和自己想象中有不小的差距..确实,在生活在不同环境下的我们,各自都会有各自的难处,各自都会有各自苦水..由此,我觉得,其实活着绝对是一件阴暗多于光明的事情.也许这个话说得有点绝对,但至少如果你不想混迹得活着,应该大多数人的感受和我是一样的.

我也和很多人一样,在成长的过程中曾有过不少迷茫与无助.我也曾经问过自己:”你到底想要什么?我这么做到底对不对?我应该怎样活着?”…..

对于这些问题,现在我终于有了属于我的答案-------我希望在我的生活中能活出一种态度,一种我自己对于生命的态度..对我来说,我要努力保持这种生活态度,因为我认为这样是对的.即使别人不认同,即使这是违背大环境的,也毫无关系..cuz生活是自己的,如果我认定这是对的,我一定会坚持,只有这样,才不会留下任何遗憾.. It’s my life..就这么简单..

生活,对我来说,更多的是一种态度..一种属于我自己的态度..(说着容易,做起来可就难喽)..

所以,我希望每个人能过上自己想要的生活,不要舍弃自己精神世界中那片纯洁而又唯美的净土.

很久不写东西了,思维已经不流畅了…但这文章也算是真情流露吧..至少它真实.

最后,祝大家新年快乐!

完毕….

ps:只是经历了断断的20年,也许我还不懂什么叫”活着”,也不明白什么叫生活..

但这并不能阻止我过我想过的生活.

当我30岁的时候,我会再次写下我对生活的感受,那时也许会成熟很多.

Now,I'm twenty.

 Here,I wanna express my appreciation for those people who appeared in my life as well as those things happened during this short 20 years.All of these happenings and these peope enrich my experience of life,I really appreciate for them.

For my parents:

When I'm growing up,I realize that how much you love me.I realized that you are always the ones who stand behind me,supporting me whenever&whatever happens to me.Towards your love,I cannot convey my feeling into words.It's beyond descriptions.

I just say here ,Mum&Dad,I'll always love you ,love you,and love you.

 For my friends:

My friends,all of YOU are playing a important role in my life. YOU offer me the help generously when i'm in trouble; YOU teach me how to face failures in my life; YOU urge me on when I'm hesitating in situations; YOU.....just teach me how to be a real man. I really appreciate for all of these things YOU have done for me.YOU are the treasure of my whole life,FOREVER.

Above is for my 20th birthday,the gift I receive from my life experience.

Just....Thank for all of you. Thank you.

Special For my love:

My dear,I love you. When I'm down,you'll always by my side,supporting me,comforting me,give me all i need. When I'm happy,you make me enjoy all the happiness more deeply in my heart. You can give me a lot ,which nobodyelse can offer. I really appreciate GOD for taking you into my destiny.You'll always be the one who I care the most in my life,I'll do whatever I can to care you ,love you,and make you happy. Maybe I cannot predict what'll happen in the future,maybe time can change many things in many different ways which are unpredictable.But what I can control is now,the every minute of now. I'll treasure everymoment of my life to do my best to care&love you. I believe that we'll be on our road,which belongs to you&me,fogether,and forever. I love you.